It’s sad. I can guess you haven’t thought about me at all today. No message, no concern for this friendship. But I still find myself staring at my phone, waiting for something. Why am I always starting the conversations? You can tell me not to worry all you want but the vibe I get is that talking to me is like a chore for you. Just tell me. I just need to know what’s going on. I would rather spend my nights crying knowing that it’s over for good rather than staying up and crying over being confused. I feel sad. It’s deep down too. Tonight felt like when we broke up. Just straight balling because I’m sad. My heart still hurts and it really shouldn’t be like this. I don’t care how pathetic or dumb I sound that I’m still genuinely upset/heart broken. You guys try having to see the love of your life every single day and know there’s probably no chance of ever getting back together. Try pretending to be happy and trying your hardest to be friends for the sake of, not only the friend group, but for what was once an honest to god best friendship. Sometimes I wish you were an asshole so that this could be easier. Hating you would be easier. But you’re an incredible guy and I could never hate you. I just don’t want to be sad anymore.
*starts crying* i just really like mashed potatoes